"Without love, what are we worth? Eighty-nine cents! Eighty-nine cents worth of chemicals walking around lonely." I feel that this statement speaks volumes.

Later today I have the first meeting for this years Settlers at Sunset series. Last year the performance had to be cancelled due to construction onsight, so I am very happy to welcome Lavinia (my character) and all my duffins creek family back to my life. This is one of my favourite plays to perform, it's always a ton of fun, with very little rehearsal time. I love this combination of scripted and improv performance, it's something I feel I do quite well. When performance time rolls around I will be very happy to be Lavinia once again.

It was my brother's 18th birthday on thursday. Wait, that can't be...didn't I just turn 18? Even though I'm 22 going on 23 I can vividly remember turning 18 myself, it doesn't feel that long ago. And although it doesn't make me feel old exactly, it just seems a little odd because it seems like such a short time ago I was 18. So anyways, I now have an 18 year old brother. Happy Birthday little spoon! (family joke) We had a very nice family dinner and cake and presents and everything on his actual birthday. It was nice and I took lots of pictures.

I also had another board of directors meeting this week, and this evening I spent a chunk of time on this computer sending out approximately some 40 or 50 some emails for Spirit Walk. I'm Stage Manager again this year, but that meant I had to sent out confirmations about what parts everyone is playing, and reminders about our first meeting.

School is coming along. I like my prof, he's interesting and has quite a sharp little sense of humour about him. Plus, he never lectures the entire 3 hour class so I get out early; this is good, because after 2 hours my brain is ready to be out of there, and it means I can catch an earlier less busy Go Train.

I worked with my little childrens today. Well, technically I did a lot of helping count up and fill out forms for the fundraising that they had been doing. But I got to see my kids anyways, and I got hugs. They're so cute.

Anyways, I should go TRY and get to sleep, since I have to get up early and be at the village for my 10 am meeting...

Up until Wednesday I was having a very good week. Then I went to the orthadontist...that pretty much put me out of commision, and now I am having serious allergy problems. Well, those two things combined prety much took care of the rest of my week. Sigh. Hope this next week will be better, I will think positively...many things to do and people to see next week, so I am sure it will be a much better week. Now, I must go finish my laundrey while the washing machine is free...

I have job interview # 2 tomorrow, and summer school starts. I am taking a break from trying to figure out how to make my computer print the stupid map I need...right now it only wants to print part of it, and the part that I don't actually need. Frustrating...

haha YAY! I took a little break and my brother finally got the map I need to print yay! Otherwise I was going to have to draw myself a little map...so this is progress. So now I have my map, my go pass...paper, pens...me...I can't really think of anything else I can get ready tonight. I will have to pack some food, but I will do that tomorrow.

I went to the dentist for a cleaning tonight, and I have to go to the orthadontist wednesday...boo. But other than that, I am looking forward to the coming long weekend. I am going to be painting our bathroom, which has gotten a little faded over the years, so hopefully we'll be going to get the paint and stuff this weekend.

oh and I bought a really cute new little red netty tank top tonight. It's a perfect top to go out dancing in...I want to go dancing soon. Spring is here, summer will be here soon YaY!

Now, off to prepare for my job interview...and St.George campus, here I come...

I just love listening to the rain. I think it can be one of the most comforting, soothing sounds around, yet it can also be very exciting and electric.

I love watching the rain pour down outside through my window, there's something fascinating about it. Or better yet, I love to watch it out an open door. Rain can be so soft and nourishing, yet dangerous and destructive other times. I love the feeling of standing outside just before it's going to rain; the tension and almost electricity that builds, the thunder or looming silence that happens just before a storm hits. There's such a feeling of power, of danger, of life.

I love to curl up with a warm blanket and listen to the sound of the thunder and rain. There's nothing nicer on a rainy day then curling up with a good book, or watching a movie while it pours outside. Or best yet, I love to just lay and daydream, let my mind wander while the sound of rain on my roof and rolling thunder fills in the background. I love laying in my bed at night while the rain pounds rhythmically on my roof, the sound lulling me, soothing me, while my mind drifts. I love going to sleep to the sound of the rain.

I also love singing and dancing in the rain...but that's a whole nother story...;)

Ok, so tonight was a quiz night...I had actually done some more quizzes, but when I tried to post the results blogger ate them...that's life right :P


Analytical Trustworthy Self Assured

Your momentary sensitivity represents that which is of high quality and durable. Consequently, you like to surround yourself with little "gems," which you discover wherever they are overlooked by others.
Thus, culture plays a special role in your life. You have found your own personal style, which is elegant and exclusive, free from the whims of fashion. Your ideal, upon which you base your life, is cultured pleasure. You value a certain level of culture on the part of the people with whom you associate.
http://www.psicologi-psicoterapeuti.it/test/testpersonalita.html

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Your Existing Situation
Sensuous. Inclined to luxuriate in things which give gratification to the senses, but rejects anything tasteless, vulgar, or coarse.

Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.

Your Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity

Your Actual Problem #2
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.
http://www.colorquiz.com/

So far I am having a very good week. On monday Britt and I had our day of adventures. We made our way downtown...not without a few misadventures I might add:P That night we went to check out the Alt Dot Comedy Lounge at the Rivoli, where we saw some very funny comics. Shouts out to Alex and Gilson for their very funny sets. Overall a very good day, with lots of much needed girly talking and general catching up on life. :)

My Grampa died 10 years ago this month. And I still miss him so much. But I see a lot of him in myself, and that's somehow comforting. It doesn't make me miss him any less, but I think it's comforting because in a way it means that I can never completely lose him. He's not only in my memories and in my heart, but in me.

RIP Frank Arnott O. I love you, I miss you, forever in my heart.

Getting over being sick. I have a busy next couple of weeks. Still not feeling so hot so this quick update will have to be continued later.

First sunburn of the season, oh yeah.

I got burned during my job "interview" for daycamps, because it was mostly outside. Now I am hot and itchy, and also trying to fight off getting sick. It's been a long day, and a long week. Going to go rest and watch a movie now, so hopefully I can feel better to study tomorrow for my exam monday.

I got new high heeled boots today, and even better, I got them on sale for half-price! They're knee high, brown, and really sexy. I love 'em!

I also got checked out 3 times just on the way home from my volunteer school today, that's always nice for an ego boost. And someone thought I was a teacher at my school, that always makes me feel so good.

Now to go finish preparing for my job interview tomorrow...er today....and then off to bed.

Been a crazy busy week; helped with Spirit Walk auditions, had my first Board of Directors meeting, studying and then the actual exam, a lot of general life crap to take care of, volunteering tomorrow, then I have to prepare for job interview #1 saturday morning, study study on sunday, exam monday and tuesday, and my nana's birthday wednesday. Phew, that was a mouthful. I'm tired just from thinking about it. Early night for me, writing exams is exhausting...I think it's time for bed...

mmm homemade coffee cake how I love thee.

And with that sentence, I belive I have officially studied too much english. When words like thee start making an appearance in your everyday life you know you're a goner...I think I'm hooked on the literature.

However, the coffee cake I baked does Officially Rock. I gots me some mad bakin' skills. Word.

Going to go eat more cake now...yummers.

3 exams left, 2 job interviews, at least 2 plays, possibly a trip to tennessee, and 4 months 5 days til teachers college begins.

Well, it's been a while since I posted, and there's been a lot going on. I guess I just didn't know where to begin, I still don't know exactly how to describe how I've been feeling. I guess start from the top...

My last post told anyone reading it I finally got a letter from teachers college, and I was accepted! It's such an amazing feeling, but so hard to describe. Happiness, elation, satisfaction, joy, disbelief. I've been working so hard towards this goal, for so long, it's hard to belive I'm actually achieving it. I've been on cloud nine, the first week after I found out absolutely nothing could bring me down, not even having to write my last essay. That made it extremely difficult; it was almost impossible to focus on my last shakespeare essay when I had this fabulous news that I was going to teachers college. It was like a glow, and I floated around in it. Just the thought of where I'm going this fall is enough to make me smile. I'll be sitting on the bus or the train, or just walking along, when I remember that I'm going to teachers college and it's enough to bring a smile to my face. Just thinking about where I'm going and what I'll be doing pastes a grin on my face that won't go away, and I end up grinning like a fool in public thinking about it. But I don't care, I'm so happy that sometimes it just takes over, it's such a relief, and a joy, and just the thought of it lights up my soul. It's impossible to describe exactly how I'm feeling, unless you've gone through it/ are going through, I don't think I could communicate it exactly. But needless to say, it's been a fan-fucking-tabulous couple of weeks. Although I am starting to come down a little off my cloud nine, I still carry that joyful little thought with me everywhere I go, even typing it now makes me smile. I waited so long to hear, I think it's almost like a backlash of relief or something, and it's hard to focus or care about exams when I know I've already been accepted. I know I have to, but it's really hard when I know I'm already going to teachers college. It just made my day, my week, my month. It wa also very exciting being able to tell people that I was accepted, and everyone was really excited and suuportive of me. When I told the principal at the school whre I volunteer, who was one of my references, he was so happy for me, so was the teacher I work with. And while I was there that afternoon he came into my class with a cupcake with a candle, and a mug with some school logo paraphnalia in it for me, and told all my kids there that I had been accepted into "teacher school" and made a really nice little speech. It made me feel so good, and happy, and I blushed beet red....even though I am a drama student :P It was just so nice to have that. And all my friends and family and everyone have just been so supportive to me I am so grateful. I've been feeling awesome just about getting to go to teachers college and everyones support has made it even better, if that's possible.

Now that I've rambled about teachers college forever....sorry....but it's some of the most exciting news I've had and the best I've felt in a long time...other things have been going on too. The same week I heard from teachers college, I also heard I got a job interview end of april to work in a specialty day camp! I applied to work for the town as a councelor for either drama camp, creative arts camp, or kinder camp. So I have a really unique kind of interview coming up where I have to lead a group in activities that I plan....of course you know mine is going to be drama related. So that's good. I have also applied to another drama day camp and they seem interested, although I will have to wait to hear from them. So my job options for this summer are looking good. I would love it if I could help run drama camps, I think that would be just about the perfect summer job for me....kids+drama!

What else...I was very excited and super busy this past weekend because my cousins from tennessee came up to visit for the long Easter weekend. They arrived thursday night and just left this morning. I was so happy to see them, they rock! Although we don't get to see them as often as I'd like, they do live in the southern states after all, we are close. They're fun and crazy and I love being with them. Which brings me to more exciting news. I might be going down to Tennessee to visit them for a month this summer! That'll be super exciting if it happens. The drama camp job would actually work out really well with that plan, because it is not for all summer. So I could earn the money to go down there, and still have the time to get there. I love spending time with my cuz's so it would rock if this idea pans out. It would also mean I would get to meet my new second cousin. My cousin just had her baby in the fall,a nd none of us up here in Canada have seen the baby real life yet, only pictures. So that would be another bonus. It would just be good times in general if I got to stay in Tennessee with my coolio cousins, I will see what I can do to try and manage it. Even if I couldn't manage a whole month, I'd love to be able to visit for just a couple weekes even. So good. So yes, my cousins Aimee and Dawnie were here all weekend, we had lots of fun times, Easter dinner, shopping, eating, hugging, loads and LOADS of massaging (I have the magic fingers...my cousin is married to a chiropractor and she and he run a business and she says I'm better than the massage therapist:) )

This morning I wrote my first exam, Shakespeare, at 9 am. It was early and shakespeare....what else can I say about it. AND I was late because my dad was driving my cousins to the airport after he dropped me at school, and they made me a little late to my exam...but I forgive them...cuz they're not here very often :P Now only 4 more exams to go *sigh* but even that I can get through, I have so many positive things going on in my life right now that they balance the evilness of exams, even early morning exams. I think that's about it, all I can think of right now anyways. Overall, I have been having Very Good Times lately. Life is good.

I knew that I was going to cry when I got my York letter, I just didn't know whether they would be tears of joy or tears of grief.

Well I finally got my York letter today.

They were tears of joy. I got my acceptance letter and I'm going to teachers college this fall!!!!!!! I'm going to be a teacher! I've waited for so long for this, and now it's finally happening, I got in! I am now officially a teacher candidate, in my first choice of schools for it!

I am so happy and excited and relieved, I can't even really begin to describe it all.

This has been one of the best days I've had in a long time.

The Countdown is over. Teachers College Admission letters are being mailed out today. And so the waiting game begins again...

So much work to do, and so little time. Taking a little break from writing one of the many essays due this coming week. My back and teeth were bothering me, so I had to get up and take a little break...which consisited of coming to my computer :P The stress of waiting to hear from teachers college has been getting worse and worse as the date comes closer. It's a stressful time of year anyway, what with school drawing to a close and so many things being due, but the EXTRA stress about teachers college has a gillionafied it approximately. Practically everyday this past week I have had a mini break down, sometimes stressing about TC, sometimes about other things. Stress really can play havoc with your emotions, and if I hadn't know that before, this year would sure as hell have shown me. Things that normally would just make me sad, or maybe make my eyes water, have been making me flat out cry my eyes out, like sad tv commercials or radio ads. It's all just so much, and there has to be an emotional release somehow I guess. It's just a lot to take, but Monday the admission letters go out...so soon I will know one way or another what I will be doing with at least the next year of my life...*fingers crossed*

I voted today in the By Election YaY! Very exciting. Even though when I presented my voting card I was not on the list. They lost me...or as the woman put it, I was missing in action. Even though I have voted before. Well, eventually they found me....not the same people...I had to go to the 'help' desk, and that woman actually knew what to do. Turns out the first woman was looking for my name under one of my middle names...even though my mother...who has the exact same last name as me....had just voted before me at the exact same station...duh! Some people are just naturally a little slow I guess...Anyways thats my election story, and I'm stickin to it:P

Hoo-Ray for Voting!

Election days Rock!

Proud to be a Votin' Canadian!

I never want to let my age define who I am. I don't want it to limit how I act, how I dress, or who I'm friends with, what I want to do or what I think I can do. Sometimes other people define who I am by it, but I hope that I never fall into that trap and do that to myself. My age is only one part of who I am, only one small facet of what makes up my personality, I recognize it's not who I am, but only one part of it. And in knowing this, I try not to judge other people by their ages, not to define who I think they are or what they are capable of doing, just by how many years old they are. I try to just take it as part of who they are, and I hope that I am able to break through some peoples preconceptions of me by my age, by showing how capable and talented I am through what I do and how I choose to act. You know how there are some people who will brush you off, or treat you differently because you're younger....with the idea in their mind that you can plainly see in their attitude, 'oh, she's just 22'. Well, I know some people like that, and I'm not going to let them define who I am, I can show who I am by just being me and letting them see that.