Oh and by the way, I forgot...

Happy Halloween Everyone!

I am so incredibly stressed. I will be so glad when this semester is over, and all my teachers college applications are done and handed in. Blech...

I can fool everyone but myself.

Who knew?

mmmmm gummies...

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

What Kind of Candy Are You?

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Dawn CatYour Superpower is WillpowerYour Weakness is Tummy RubsYour Weapon is Your Mind NunchucksYour Mode of Transportation is Cloud

What's" your Superhero Name?

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-) You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person. Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Interesting that one...

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 66% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

Man, remember the days when I used to be able to eat real food? I sure do. Those were good times...I miss that.

update - the tv is constantly playing commercials of yummy looking food that i cannot yet eat. It's cruel! stupid products and their desire to sell them for profits...*shakes fist*

How can it possibly be October?

Getting braces sucks. Getting braces sucks HARDCORE.
I'm back to liquids and very soft foods like mashed potatoes again.
I tried eating some very, very soft pizza yesterday because I thought I might be able to manage it.
I couldn't, I got through less than half of it. It hurt to much when I chewed because of the temporary spacers between my molars.
I have no energy because I have hardly been eating anything, besides nutrition shakes (which aren't very filling let me tell you). And mashed potatoes, or soup,or today I thought of squash. You get the idea. It's sad how happy I was to eat potatoes, squash, and ice cream today.
And I feel like crap.
Just when I was getting back to somewhere near normal again. I had recovered from the surgery enough I was eating many regular foods again. True, I had to have all of my food cut up in managable, small bite sized pieces (because I am missing three of the front teeth I usually bite with), but I was back to pretty regular food again. You know, chicken, carrots, pizza, fruit ect.
Now I'm back to where I started.
This whole experience is terrible. I know I will be very glad when I am done, and have beautiful straight teeth. But the whole getting there is horrible.
It hurt like a bitch getting them on. That was mostly the temporary spacers she shoved between my back teeth, to make room for the anchors for the wire that goes on next week.
But the brackets are no fun either. My mouth is getting rubbed raw. I have wax to put on them if they are rubbing certain spots, but I can't cover every single bracket with wax.
During the time I was recovering from the oral surgery my tongue was constantly going numb on and off. I thought that had finally stopped.
Then I went to the orthodontist and she pushed and poked and shoved and jammed everything around.
Now that recurring numbness has come back, seems the placement of the braces have reaggravated everything again.
I just keep telling myself it's all for my acting. When I feel like trying to pry these silly things off, I remind myself why I am doing it. Why I need to do it.
But it's been a really terrible week. I have missed too much school because I've been so weak and grotty feeling.
I don't mean to scare anyone who has yet to get braces. Granted I do have very sensitive teeth, and it depends on the person, everyone reacts differently. But it's been a very bad experience for me.
But I'm so tired of it all already, and this is only the beginning. This is going to be a very long, 2 years or more process. That really depresses me. Everyone keeps saying it will get better, it's hard to believe when I feel like this, but I really hope so.
The wire goes on Monday, apparently my teeth needed a week to move a little for the rest of the stuff they need to put on, or move, or whatever.
It's been a really trying month. A really painful month. I'll get it through it. I know I will. But it will certainly be a trial.