You know what's creepy?
It's creepy when you're on a school field trip, bowling with a bunch of little kids in the middle of the afternoon, and old men check you out.
Very Creepy.

Stupid Fucking Braces.
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In intense and incredible physical pain. Yesterday was a complete write off of a day, and today pretty much too. Yesterday I got my bottom wire put on, and the elastics on my top braces changed. I was expecting so much pain, because I've already had the top ones on for a while. Well my god it was terrible, worse than the first time I even got them on. I hurt so much that the 2 advils I took didn't even dull the pain, didn't even take the edge off. So basically, all I did yesterday was take 2 advils every four hours, wrap myself in a blanket and lay around watching tv, not eating. I kept taking the advil, even though it didn't seem to be doing anything....maybe it would have made my head explode if I hadn't taken it though. I do not rememebr the last time I was in pain like that; imagine having a really bad toothache, one that goes right down from the roots of your tooth to the tips, and then imagine having that in every single tooth, and multiply that by about a thousand....thouse million maybe...and you get an idea of what I was feeling. I was expecting the bottom wire to be more managable pain since I had already experienced the trauma of the top barces wire going on, and so knew what to expect. But no no....a dreadful, horrible experience, which pains not only my mouth but this week down my jaw, chin, and right up into my ears. At least the advil dulled the pain a little bit today, but I just want it to go away. Hardly ate anything today either....this is why I'm losing weight. This has been a very bad week so far. And I have to go teach drama to grade 7's today, with a very pain filled mouth...having to be loud (it hurts my mouth to talk loudly) and patient when I'm in pain....this'll be fun...:(

I broke myself again. I was being industrius and sorting, and tidying a whole bunch of crap that has been piling up for a while, and I told myself I would do over reading week. So it was going good and I was pretty pleased with myself. There was a humoungous pile of papers for recycling and a lovely absence of huge piles of papers, I just had some sorted piles I had to put away. So I opened up the first drawer of my file cabinet, and nothing more would fit. I opened up the 2nd drawer to see what was in it (leaving the 1st drawer open, bc I have some clothes hung up on the handle of the 1st drawer and I can't open the lower drawers without having it open first). Discovering that someone else had appropriated what little space was left in it, I then opened the 3rd drawer, and just had enough time to jump back out of the way as my entire 4 cabinet file cabinet came crashing down. It made a very loud, very bad noise...it's a pretty good sized sucker. Of course though it wasn't just the cabinet that was crashed over, drawers laying crookedly open, my TV had also fallen off the top of it, knocking a good sized gouge out of my bookshelf, as I was to discover. It also knocked some trinkets on my bookshelf around, and broke the edge of one of my favourite candle holders. As I kept checking for damage I discovered it had also knocked down my curio cabinet off the wall as it smashed down. I was horrifed, I have a lot of little things I value in it, and it has a glass front, and if they haad all broke I think that would have upset me most of anything. Well, f the tv/file cabinet did knock the display (curio) case off the wall, but fortunately as it did it ripped a piece of wood off the edge, releasing the glass front so that it hadn't shattered. The case is missing a chunk, but the glass and almost all the things inside are ok. only one unicorn broke his leg :( And my TV is now a little worse for the wear, having left some black marks on my bookcase, but it's apparently tougher than it looks because we plugged it back in and it still works fine! However, 2 of my file cabinet drawers are now whacked out, they don't fit properly anymore; my dad is away for the week end and I am hoping once he gets back he will be able to fix them. This is what I get for trying to tidy things I guess huh...well, despite the bad things that happened, they could have been a lot worse, so I am glad they weren't. I'm really tensed up now though, it was startling and jarring to the nerves. As well, I mentioned I am broken again. I don't know whether I hurt myself jumping back out of the way of the falling obstacles, or when I lifted that huge HEAVY bugger back up (even with the help of my mum), or from a combination of both, but I am injured. Right after we got the cabinet back up I ould feel I had strained my back a little. But I think my left side is out, because my left ankle and knee feel very poorly, as does my left wrist, and they are tingling like when your foot goes to sleep...which means there's a nerve pressing somewhere obviously. Why is it I always have to hurt myself on the weekend when there is no where open to fix me? They don't have emergency chiropractors unfortunately, nor emergency massage therapists, and I can tell I need to go to both. This day was going so well and now it's turned to crap. I hate being broken and it always happens on the weekend...

Valentine's Day.
It's like someone with a really perverse sense of humour said, hey, let's make a holiday that will make all the single people feel really alone and really depressed...what a great idea! Thanks a lot...

If you're part of a couple I think it can be really nice. I'm not all about the commercialization of Valentine's day, but you can show your affection for your partner without forking out a load of cash.

However, for those of us not in a relationship, it can be pretty depressing. It might not be so much, if it was not so over the top advertised like everywhere; stores, school, tv....what have you.

But it's like, for me, everywhere I go, not only on Valentine's day but over the week before as well, there are constant reminders that I am going to be alone on this day of couples. The commercials about the chocolate, the Constant jewellry ads, just every where I look or go. It feels unfair to constantly shove these things in everyones faces, it's annoying. Like I said, I'm not downing on people celebrating being together, it's just this over advertised, over commercialized part of it that annoys and depresses me. If I was with someone on Valentines day I would happily celebrate it, but I don't see the need to commercialize it to the extent that it alienates and depresses most of the single population out there.

I think, no wait I KNOW, I'm going to be indulging in a lot of chocolate, a little self pity at least, and sappy, mushy movies that'll make me cry like a big baby tomorrow night.

I don't want to be depressed, and I try not to be, but I know I will be. So, I'll make sure I'm stocked up on chocolate and kleenex for tomorrow, and I'll get through it. *sigh* I'm such a girly girl sometimes.

You know what's sad about Reading Week? I'm actually going to be reading...I have a paper due on the first day back to school, amoung other things.
But, I'm sure I'll find at least a *little* time to have fun too though :P

My Alan Alda goals;

1. To watch all his movies/TV shows/productions
2. To see him act live
3. To meet him
4. To act with him

I am currently working on the first one, watching all Alan Alda movies/TV shows, and once I accomplish number 2, seeing him act live, I am pretty sure I can get number 3 done, meeting him, at the same time. Number 4, I can only hope...I think for that one I may have to wait a little while, but I can keep working on my acting career and hope one day to accomplish it.