This is not what I want to do anymore. York is doing nothing but holding me back, I want to break free. I'm stuck in a weird limbo waiting for them to get their act together enough to find my damn placement, the lack of teaching for 3 weeks is holding me back, stopping me from pursuing anything else, from what I want. I can hardly stand it anymore. It's so oppressive, above my head, pressing down on my shoulders, when all I want to do is act. Find an agent, push andf push myself because I know I can do it. It'll be hard, it'll be hard work, and I know that. I'm scared, it's actually kind of terrifying, yet exilerating at the same time. But I know that I can do it if I get the chance, rather if I take the chance. That's all I'm asking right now, is to be able to take that chance. Screw you York. *said in a bitter and disappointed tone*

I don't remember the last time I felt so absolutely single...

BUT...

I won't settle for anything less than the butterflies.

My braces are finally coming off on OCTOBER 15TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is so frickin awesome, fantastic, exciting, stupendous, life altering, changing everything!!!!!!!

It has been a very long 2 and something odd years. I will only have to wear a retainer then, and will be able to take it out for pictures and eating of foods I have greatly missed. I am going to have a party eating all the things I haven't been able to the last few years, including gum, nuts, ribs, corn on the cob, and many ecteras.

17 days til my braces come off baby, only a little over 2 weeks!

Boo-Ya!!!!!

I can hardly wait.....

"Well-behaved women rarely make history"

Does this statement strike you as true or what? It certainly does for me...when I think back about the famous or infamous women I have learned about in history, very few of them were well-behaved or willing to conform to what other expected. They were strong, passionate, and lived life by their own set of rules and expectations. Now, to clarify, to me well-behaved does not necessarily mean polite or anything like that in this instance. You can have good manners and social grace and still not be well-behaved.

I knew there had to be a reason for the way I act...fiercely independant and an unwillingness to submit to what other people push for, a passion and compassion for life and the people and things in it...

...Maybe one day I'll be destined for greatness...

...In acting anyways I hope...

...Perhaps more...

I am so in love with Mike Rowe, host of that fascinating show called Dirty Jobs. He is so hot, and talented, and entertaining....he has the best sense of humour, and a self confidence that you can't help but find sexy.

And who doesn't love a dirty boy?