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Ordinary People, Average Lives
Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to live the rest of my life in the shadows
Plodding along in this safe, sedementry little world
Unnoticed, Unfulfilled, Never center stage
Watching as others take their turn in the spotlight
Wondering, why not me?
Never reaching my potential
Because no one will ever give me the chance
Will I simply drift through life
Leaving no mark behind me
I don't want to be one of those ordinary people, living the average life
Forgotten once I'm out of sight
I want to be remembered
I want people to know my name
To know Who I am, to know Me
I want to live beyond my own lifetime
To make a difference
And to make this world a better place than when I came into it
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
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I hate germs. Need I say that I'm sick again? Stupid, stupid body. I was kind of wondering when all this would start...getting sick and all. Well, hopefully I will be un-sick soon. And now that the insane exam filled, assignment due quizzes and tests all the time stress filled period is letting up a little...maybe I'll get a little more sleep? Hopefully? And a little less stress? I worry way too much...I mean WAY too much...I'm trying to get a handle on it....but I'm an anxious person, what can I say. Last week was just way too stressful. Oh yes, and avoiding problems...no admitedly not the best way to deal with things...but I don't know what else to do. And yea I'm still worrying about it a little...but no nearly so stressed or nervous as I was last week. SO unfortunately the results of avoiding this issue seem to be self-rewarding. Less stress right away. *sighs* I really am starting to belive that guys are the cause of most of life's problems....well that's how I feel right now anyways.
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I hate germs. Need I say that I'm sick again? Stupid, stupid body. I was kind of wondering when all this would start...getting sick and all. Well, hopefully I will be un-sick soon. And now that the insane exam filled, assignment due quizzes and tests all the time stress filled period is letting up a little...maybe I'll get a little more sleep? Hopefully? And a little less stress? I worry way too much...I mean WAY too much...I'm trying to get a handle on it....but I'm an anxious person, what can I say. Last week was just way too stressful. Oh yes, and avoiding problems...no admitedly not the best way to deal with things...but I don't know what else to do. And yea I'm still worrying about it a little...but no nearly so stressed or nervous as I was last week. SO unfortunately the results of avoiding this issue seem to be self-rewarding. Less stress right away. *sighs* I really am starting to belive that guys are the cause of most of life's problems....well that's how I feel right now anyways.
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
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Why do people have to be such assholes? If there's one thing I hate, it's people talking about me behind my back. If someone has a problem with me, I would far rather they come to me and deal with it, not just decide there's no solution and give up. I was very very angry and upset yesterday, and though not as upset I'm still very irritated today. Sometimes, I just don't understand people. I am not a confrontational person, but leaving issues undealt with really really bothers me, and I would rather deal with the problem now rather than let it sit and cause all sorts of problems. Now I'm going to have to be the mature one and try and solve the problem. Otherwise it's just going to be weird, and probly kind of awkward and it's just going to cause problems in the group. When this as a matter of fact, shouldn't even involve anyone else. As far as I'm concerned it shouldn't even involve me, but it apparently does, so I'm going to deal with it, and my friends shouldn't have to. As far as I am concerned, this situation shouldn't even exist at all. And to top it off, this probly won't even be resolved until christmas break. So i'm going to try and put it out of my mind, but I'm a worrier, so I'll just have to try.
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Why do people have to be such assholes? If there's one thing I hate, it's people talking about me behind my back. If someone has a problem with me, I would far rather they come to me and deal with it, not just decide there's no solution and give up. I was very very angry and upset yesterday, and though not as upset I'm still very irritated today. Sometimes, I just don't understand people. I am not a confrontational person, but leaving issues undealt with really really bothers me, and I would rather deal with the problem now rather than let it sit and cause all sorts of problems. Now I'm going to have to be the mature one and try and solve the problem. Otherwise it's just going to be weird, and probly kind of awkward and it's just going to cause problems in the group. When this as a matter of fact, shouldn't even involve anyone else. As far as I'm concerned it shouldn't even involve me, but it apparently does, so I'm going to deal with it, and my friends shouldn't have to. As far as I am concerned, this situation shouldn't even exist at all. And to top it off, this probly won't even be resolved until christmas break. So i'm going to try and put it out of my mind, but I'm a worrier, so I'll just have to try.
Monday, October 13, 2003
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People, life is good. If I'm not on cloud nine right now, I'm pretty close to it. I'm very happy, very excited, but also kind of nervous. I have homework that I need to be doing...but I'm not. I just can't concentrate on it right now. Try reading shakespeare when you're feeling like this. You can't....believe me, I tried. I'm just in a really good mood, but I'm very giggly, lol. So I'm having a VERY good day, I just hope I can settle down enough later to concentrate on the damn homework, much as I'd like to chuck it out the window, I have to deal with it. And if I'm having a good day today, what am I going to be like all day tomorrow? Leya, I have a feeling you might be getting a call from a very excited Kt tomorrow night, just so you'll be prepared. *grins* I think I will be grinning a lot tomorrow. Ah well, right now, life is looking good, if somewhat stressed, so I'll leave it at that.
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People, life is good. If I'm not on cloud nine right now, I'm pretty close to it. I'm very happy, very excited, but also kind of nervous. I have homework that I need to be doing...but I'm not. I just can't concentrate on it right now. Try reading shakespeare when you're feeling like this. You can't....believe me, I tried. I'm just in a really good mood, but I'm very giggly, lol. So I'm having a VERY good day, I just hope I can settle down enough later to concentrate on the damn homework, much as I'd like to chuck it out the window, I have to deal with it. And if I'm having a good day today, what am I going to be like all day tomorrow? Leya, I have a feeling you might be getting a call from a very excited Kt tomorrow night, just so you'll be prepared. *grins* I think I will be grinning a lot tomorrow. Ah well, right now, life is looking good, if somewhat stressed, so I'll leave it at that.
Friday, October 10, 2003
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Poem
I'm crying for all the lost lives and lost loves
All the things that could have been, but never were
The crushed hopes, missed oppourtunities
All the things that could be, but never will
For all the lost lives and lost loves
Missed oppourtunities, Dreams forgotton
Hearts opened, then crushed
Hands held out, then slapped away
Hopes, and lives ended needlessly
The young, the innocent, the unready
Unknowing, unsuspecting
Changing lives forever
Maybe on a dark night, in a car
Crashing, breaking, flying glass
Hopes dashed, lives ended before they began
A cousin, an uncle, a grandfather,
All taken too soon.
Death is not a kind master
Life ending, in a car alone
Or in a hospital bed
It's still the same, still the end
They were loved, and will be sorely missed,
Never forgotten.
Memories cherished, for the time they were here
Holding onto the hopes
The fragments of memories
The sights, the smells, that bring them back
Then having to live on without them.
Here for too short a time
I feel I barely got to know them before they were taken away
At 16 or 60, still too short a time.
Being young doesn't make it easier
Doesn't mean you don't understand
Don't feel the pain
What people don't understand, is
Children do understand
And when they're denied the grieving process
It's harder to bear.
Death takes too many
Touches to many lives
Too many times
But for all the pain and grief it brings
I would not change my life
To not know them, to not care
No one likes pain or grief
But we must bear them because they are a part of life.
No matter how briefly someone touches your life
It's worth it
And cliche as it may be,
I'm lucky to have known so many people who were so hard to say good-bye to
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Poem
I'm crying for all the lost lives and lost loves
All the things that could have been, but never were
The crushed hopes, missed oppourtunities
All the things that could be, but never will
For all the lost lives and lost loves
Missed oppourtunities, Dreams forgotton
Hearts opened, then crushed
Hands held out, then slapped away
Hopes, and lives ended needlessly
The young, the innocent, the unready
Unknowing, unsuspecting
Changing lives forever
Maybe on a dark night, in a car
Crashing, breaking, flying glass
Hopes dashed, lives ended before they began
A cousin, an uncle, a grandfather,
All taken too soon.
Death is not a kind master
Life ending, in a car alone
Or in a hospital bed
It's still the same, still the end
They were loved, and will be sorely missed,
Never forgotten.
Memories cherished, for the time they were here
Holding onto the hopes
The fragments of memories
The sights, the smells, that bring them back
Then having to live on without them.
Here for too short a time
I feel I barely got to know them before they were taken away
At 16 or 60, still too short a time.
Being young doesn't make it easier
Doesn't mean you don't understand
Don't feel the pain
What people don't understand, is
Children do understand
And when they're denied the grieving process
It's harder to bear.
Death takes too many
Touches to many lives
Too many times
But for all the pain and grief it brings
I would not change my life
To not know them, to not care
No one likes pain or grief
But we must bear them because they are a part of life.
No matter how briefly someone touches your life
It's worth it
And cliche as it may be,
I'm lucky to have known so many people who were so hard to say good-bye to
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Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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I'm a Flower child. I really am at heart. I should have been a child of the sixties. I mean, for one thing, look at the clothes. I would be in heaven, all the funky, retro bright psychadelic colours were in back then. Besides that, I'm a peace loving arts student, I'd fit right in! Make Love, Not War...come on, a time filled with protests? Sit ins? The music? Peformance art?Feminist revolution? That's so me. A time I would Love to visit. *sighs* Oh man, I wish I could go back with a couple of hundred dollars, you know how many clothes I could buy with that kind of money back then? I would have my wardrobe filled out for a long time. *stares off into the distance* Anyways, the point is I think I'm a Flower child at heart. Anyone else?
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I'm a Flower child. I really am at heart. I should have been a child of the sixties. I mean, for one thing, look at the clothes. I would be in heaven, all the funky, retro bright psychadelic colours were in back then. Besides that, I'm a peace loving arts student, I'd fit right in! Make Love, Not War...come on, a time filled with protests? Sit ins? The music? Peformance art?Feminist revolution? That's so me. A time I would Love to visit. *sighs* Oh man, I wish I could go back with a couple of hundred dollars, you know how many clothes I could buy with that kind of money back then? I would have my wardrobe filled out for a long time. *stares off into the distance* Anyways, the point is I think I'm a Flower child at heart. Anyone else?
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
You are Love.
You love life, you love all those around you and
the world that you live in. You are happiest
when you are doing something for someone else
or for the common good of mankind.
What Emotion Are You?
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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Nerdslut
What's your sexual appeal?
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innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
that way
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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"Sweet Dreams" (by Eurythmics)
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
Which 80's Song Fits You?
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My inner child is six years old!
Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Thursday, October 02, 2003
Oh yes, I forgot to add that I VOTED for the very first time ever today! Yaaay! Voters anon. meets wednesdays nights at 7. I am so excited about being able to vote. I am helping to shape the Canada of tomorrow and of our future. I made a difference. I will never ever be able to understand people who don't vote. I have been waiting for this for so long, and I will never let an election go by in which I don't have my say. It's like those commercials, if you don't vote, you don't have a say. And then you have no say in your hair cut. I am so very excited that this right and privlge is mine, I love Canada. Oh Canada, you'll always be my true home. And people now that the provincial elction is over, don't forget to vote in the municipal one in November. I'm getting myself a Parish button. And I might volunteer even. Anways all I'm saying is get out there and have your say, help decide the future of Canada and keep it the great country that it is. We're a democracy, so get out there and practice your democratic right to VOTE! or in the words of a certain email I received today, (fellow Spirit Walkers/Chicken-eers will understand)
It may be 2003, not 1837, but the battle against the Tories is not yet won --
GET OUT THERE AND VOTE!!!
It may be 2003, not 1837, but the battle against the Tories is not yet won --
GET OUT THERE AND VOTE!!!
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Ok guys, so I don't know what the hell happened, but I can get into my blog again. For the longest time it just refused to let me make new entries and for some reason I tried today, and it let me. The mentality of computers, go figure. Anyways thats the reason I haven't written here for so long. I'm feeling just a LITTLE stressed right now with school and everything. All the work seems to be piling on. However Leya and I did start our latin dancing this week...go dancing! It rocks! I am the man...thats right, you heard me. There was like 5 guys and 35 girls, so I was a man, and I got to lead. However if there is a way to persuade the hot drama guys to come join the class, Leya and I will do it. On that note, I'm also in an I Hate Boys stage, I'm quite lacking in faith in the male species. I am just feeling very frustrated and you know why. If you don't, you don't need to know. Hopefully I'll be out of this stage soon...it's not a fun stage...Stupid hot boys and their stupid selves. Anyways on a happier note I am also in a panto, YaaY Aladdin, and Leya and I are both Handmaidens. Not very impressed at all about that at first, but already things are looking up. We got to know some of the other girls tonight and they are really nice. Unfortunately no hot guys our age in it, and not a certain someone I vainly hoped would be in it to, but what can you do. I have given up on that. Anyways thats it for now, and now that I can actually get in here it should be updated a little more frequently. :)
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Ok guys, so I don't know what the hell happened, but I can get into my blog again. For the longest time it just refused to let me make new entries and for some reason I tried today, and it let me. The mentality of computers, go figure. Anyways thats the reason I haven't written here for so long. I'm feeling just a LITTLE stressed right now with school and everything. All the work seems to be piling on. However Leya and I did start our latin dancing this week...go dancing! It rocks! I am the man...thats right, you heard me. There was like 5 guys and 35 girls, so I was a man, and I got to lead. However if there is a way to persuade the hot drama guys to come join the class, Leya and I will do it. On that note, I'm also in an I Hate Boys stage, I'm quite lacking in faith in the male species. I am just feeling very frustrated and you know why. If you don't, you don't need to know. Hopefully I'll be out of this stage soon...it's not a fun stage...Stupid hot boys and their stupid selves. Anyways on a happier note I am also in a panto, YaaY Aladdin, and Leya and I are both Handmaidens. Not very impressed at all about that at first, but already things are looking up. We got to know some of the other girls tonight and they are really nice. Unfortunately no hot guys our age in it, and not a certain someone I vainly hoped would be in it to, but what can you do. I have given up on that. Anyways thats it for now, and now that I can actually get in here it should be updated a little more frequently. :)
