Brunette brunette brunette brunette. Do you know I don't miss being a blonde? Only problem is that my headshots are blonde and now don't match my current state of head-colourness...hmmm...well, I hope people aren't too surprised if I send out blonde pics and then show up at the audition brunette! Not much I can do about it...so I will laugh about it instead. :P

A question I have been asking myself -
is it bad that I hope he gets hurt like he hurt me?

I think that's a horrible thing to wish on anyone. On the surface I tell myself I don't want that, but deep down I think I actually do. Then I think about it and how terrible being hurt like that is, and I don't want to wish that on anyone.

I really don't know sometimes, and sometimes...often...my head and heart tell me two different things. Life is so confusing.

The Canadian Flag is Red.
The Liberals are Red.
It's a Sad, Sad day when our flag turns blue.

I watched the election coverage all night, yelling at my TV, hoping.
But the Conservatives won. I am very sad. :(

I VOTED! I was so excited all day today that I was going to vote, anytime anyone mentioned the election I was like YAY I get to vote! So ok, I'm a nerd...whatcha gonna do about it? :P Now to watch the polls roll in tonight...*fingers crossed*

An example of how I have changed since I started university.

In first year when I was looking over the English courses I read the course description for Bible and Literature. I laughed my ass off, mocked it considerably, wondered why anyone would take it who was not religious, and said, yeah That's a course I'll never be taking...

This semester I am taking Bible and Literature II.

Never thought I'd see the day. But I needed a course, and the more I learned at University, particularily about the huge amount of biblical allusions, and the connections between a religious based society and literature, the more sense this course made to me.

From 1st year to 4th year...grown up a little more now...and not mocking the course.

I will however still mock the fact that I have to BUY a bible for school...there is only so much a person can change after all:P

After approximately a year and a half of being blonde, it feels good to be a brunette again.

Happy New Years Everyone!

Hugs and Kisses and have a Rockin' Good Time!

I remember sitting on your lap, laughing
Looking in your eyes
Playing the game
Thinking you wanted me
Talking in the shadows
Teasing words and playful touches
Watching and listening to you
Helping you rehearse that role
For someone else
I thought I could fill it
But you wouldn't even let me try
Walking up that path with you
I guess the moonlight mislead me
And my hopes caught on fire
Blazing high
Then burning to nothing
Instead of steadily lighting our way

The long walk to heartache
Uphill battle
Instead of helping me
You watch me struggle,
Almost fall
And you leave me behind
To travel back down the path
In the dark and alone
Heartbreak stalks me
It trips me and I fall
A hard bed and a dark, cold city
Stop to remind me
That I won't be allowed to forget

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Sleep my way to the top. Get your resolution here

It'd be interesting to see how I'd manage to do this one....

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Get the chick next door pregnant. Get your resolution here

I cannot believe I got ID'd buying a Christmas lottery ticket last night...apparently I don't even look 18 anymore? I haven't been ID'd for the lotto since the day I turned 18...crazyness. This is also the latest I've ever finished up my Christmas shopping, it's been such a crazy busy year I just finished up yesterday! But now I have all the presents, and most of them are actually wrapped. I visited Jenn and her family on Thursday night, which I really enjoyed. Hadn't seen her in like forever it seems; and her kids are absolutely adorable. Cookies are baked, goodies are ready to be eaten, I can hear Christmas music drifting in from the kitchen, and Flintstones christmas show is playing on TV...presents piled up, my Nanas here, and more family is coming over tomorrow, so we're on our way to Christmas! I'm very excited, and happy that the holidays are finally here, and I get to relax and enjoy Christmas. I hope everyone has an fun, loving holiday with family and friends, full of good food and good fun, and I wish you all a Merry Christmas!

You ever have that feeling like you were over someone, then you find out that they're with someone else, and it really hurts? Kind of like a punch in the chest, a drop in the pit of your stomach, or your eyes filling up...but while you're hurt, you feel angry at the same time? Yeah, that feeling really sucks...and that's just how I feel right now.

Sometimes I just look around and realize how good I really have it.
Sometimes it's a moment in a tv show, or a commercial, a line from a song on the radio, or an ad,
that strikes a chord somewhere within me, and my eyes fill up, and it just makes me stop and think about the suffering that goes on in the world. Sometimes it's a specific thought, if I heard an Ad or commercial for something, sometimes it's more general, like after watching a documentary a while ago. Either way, it makes me stop and think and appreciate what I have. Sometimes in the midst of bitching about exams, or school stress, or relationship conflicts, I just have one of those moments, and it reminds me of what a really good life I do have. And how lucky I am to have it. And it just makes some things, not seem less imporatnt, but puts them in perspective. I've been having a number of those moments lately, maybe because it's getting closer to christmas and there is a lot more advertising for people in need. Whatever the reason, sometimes it's good to just take a moment, take a breathe, and realize in spite of the trials of life, it's Good.

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Applications are in. It's like a giant weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Literally. When I mailed the last one off on Tuesday I could literally feel my stress level decrease...at least a little. Now I have done all that I can do in this process, and have to play the waiting game. At least, all I can do until I get called for interviews...hopefully. Handed in another essay today, which m,eans I only have one more to write then I'm done, except for exams. My first exam is SATURDAy the 9th at 9 freaking AM. No likely. I don't do so well with the early exams. So that's Saturday, then exams on Monday, Wednesday, and the last one on the 22nd. So although I am still stressed, I am very happy that all my teachers college applications are done, and in, and I've done all I can for now. Today, er, rather yesterday at this late hour, was the deadline for the applications to be in. *sigh of relief*
On a different note; elections have been called again, YAY! I am very excited that I get to vote again, I am even considering doing some campaign volunteer work this time around. I think that would be so cool. I love being involved with my country and I love being able to vote. *does a little happy dance* If anyone wants to discuss the election campains and canidates and whatnot I am very happy to do so, but a request/suggestion; Please keep it CIVIL. Be positive, and don't get personal. I get really offended when people attack me for the political views I have or support, and I'm going to be a lot more stringent in not putting up with it this time around. You don't have to like or agree with what I believe, and I love a good arguement, but keep it to the arguement, don't get personal or judgemental. That's how I feel anyways, I think that's about it for now.

I am so stressed out. Finishing up teachers college applications which have to be mailed. A gazillion essays. Worries about where I'll be and what I'll be doing next year...I really want this. I am so majorly stressed out lately, but by this time next week the applications will have been mailed and be there, so then it becomes the waiting game, and at least I will have done all that I can for the moment. Please Please Please let me IN *prays to the teachers college gods*.

Lest we forget.

In Flanders Fields

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved, and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders Fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders Fields.

- John McCrae


The price of freedom is high, and although I am not a pro war person, I honour the memory of the men and women who fought for us so long ago.

They bought our freedom with their lives.

Never forget.

Oh and by the way, I forgot...

Happy Halloween Everyone!

I am so incredibly stressed. I will be so glad when this semester is over, and all my teachers college applications are done and handed in. Blech...

I can fool everyone but myself.